So, what got me out of the funk you ask? Well Wednesday night I prayed, something I had gotten out of the habit of doing. I basically said that I'm really struggling and asked for a lifeline –someone to talk to because I didn't know who to contact (I blame this on the mental mush, I've had a number of friends tell me I can call and chat any time)– and I guess I also wanted someway to know that God was really listening.
I believe the quote goes 'Ask and ye shall receive' or something like that. I mean I kind of knew it worked, I've seen it happen in other people's lives, but I wasn't sure if it would work for me. And if it did work I thought it would be from family or a really close friend.
The result? I was contacted by two people.
On Thursday morning a friend from high school contacted me, although that wasn't quite the amazing part. I suppose I should preface this friendship a little; we had a few classes together, hung out in some of the same groups, are friends on facebook, but we haven't really chatted in years! So you can imagine I was a little surprised when I received the following:
I think my jaw hit the floor! Are you serious, did that really just happened!?"This is out of the blue.... But, how are you doing? For some reason I had a gut feeling this morning that I should make sure you are okay."
But that's not all! Another person contacted me Thursday afternoon! Now we had only meet two maybe three times in the last 6 months, and these were brief encounters. More like introductions, a question or two, exchange contact information, and that was it. No other contact in any way. In fact I'm a quite surprised they were able to get/find my number. But here is what I received.
Wait! What? Yeah, a second time!Are you Joseph who wanted to learn violin?YesTurns out I didn't have your number and I had to get if from someone! I've been thinking of you recently and feeling the urge to reach out.Awesome, well I'm glad you found it. I've been depressed lately and, well, I prayed for some help. I'm finding it interesting who is showing up.Yeah I've been trying to get to you because I suspected you've been depressed and I'm pretty sure that music will bring you out of it.
I don't know about you but there is no way I can deny the hand of the Lord in my life after that experience. What better way to show that I am cared about and my Heavenly Father really is there for me, listening, than to pick two practical strangers to be my lifeline! It's also helping me to realize that sometimes we don't get what we want and I'm sure there is a reason, even if I don't like it. But I bear testimony that if we ask and it is for our good and our progress the Lord will provide a way.